Temporal Lobe Epilepsy a Gift or a Curse?

U may wonder why am I talking on this topic. Yes, I am a victim of this disorder since Feb 2006.

I hav crossed so many hurdles in life because of my brought up. I am not sociable and adaptable like the most. I will always be in my own circle of rules like most of my friends quote. When the whole world is moving in one direction I am the one who will be moving against everything and everyone. As I give more importance to perfection, dedication and completion which are of least importance or ignored by the most. This is what differentiates and separates me from the most and I was hated by all. But they don't know the days I cried in my parents lap why people hate me? Why they keep away from me? Why they see me different? What's wrong with me? Yes, I got the answers after 20 long years when my difference made sense. I don't know whether my disorder is genetic or through fever or head injury as the cause is still a mystery. But I believe it's a gift. It taught me about different faces of people and made the bond stronger between me and the God. When I realized no one could help me overcome I felt He was in me, an unusual strength. I hav heard and been asked by doctors do u draw? Do u write? Do u imagine? Do u get new ideas? I wondered why they r asking these questions then I came to know most of the artists, writers and all who r creative where a victim of this disorder. Then I laughed to myself God is really calculative though He buried these talents in us he made us realize nothing can be achieved without pain. Like they say no pain no gain. Still I din't get angry on Him, but asked each day "take me soon God I don't wanna live this life through pain". As this life on this world is easy than bearing this pain.

We all being the children of God I believe that He has greater plans for me and trust that He do hav reasons for all these. As I always hope that "Everything happens for a reason".